Eagy Family Blog

Happy Valentine’s Day from our little loves:

Hannah,

Gabe,

and Abigail. Have a great day celebrating the ones you love!

Thank you to all our friends and family for your support. God has continued His goodness and grace in allowing Katie to deliver the baby quickly and with as little pain as possible yesterday afternoon. He has been very gracious to allow this whole process to be quick from beginning to end. We have seen His hand in many different aspects of this time, and have been very blessed.

If you have emailed or called, thank you - we are not trying to avoid anyone but are trying to be careful to take care of our immediate needs. We look forward to talking to each of you as time permits.

Again, thank you for your prayers and support - we feel very loved!

Blessings - Ryan

God is good.

Yesterday afternoon Katie noticed some spotting (bleeding). This morning it was much more intense. After an emergency trip to the ultra-sound group at Saint Al’s and then to the OB/GYN, we were told that our fourth child had passed away.

This is an odd experience - I will never have the opportunity to hold my fourth child, kiss them, hug them - I don’t even know if it was a boy or a girl. But they are still very real to me, and the grief is real as well.

But I have great joy - for I believe that my child is today with their Lord and Savior! For just as the word says:

“Yet you are he who took me from the womb; you made me trust you at my mother’s breasts. On you was I cast from my birth, and from my mother’s womb you have been my God.” Psalm 22:9-10

“If you were blind, you would not have had sin; but since you say, ‘We see,’ your sin remains.” John 9:41

“Since the creation of the world God’s invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse.” Romans 1:20

My child was not innocent (Psalm 58:3). Just like you and me they need justification through Christ to stand before God in judgment. But Paul and Jesus both imply that those who do not have access to Gods revelation of Christ in His gospel or through nature would have an excuse at judgment. I agree with many other greater thinkers than I that my child didn’t have this capacity nor this revelation - and so:

“…in God’s inscrutable way, he brings them under the forgiving blood of his Son. God in his justice will find a way to absolve infants who die of their depravity. It will surely be through Christ. But beyond that we would be guessing.” John Piper

How God will do this I don’t know. I would love to think that it looks like my child growing up at the knee of our Lord and Savior, learning daily from His own words, and coming to a saving faith in the knowledge of Jesus directly from Him!

And in the end I lean solely on the goodness of our God:

‘You are good and do good’ Psalm 119:68

And to paraphrase George Muller (I changed it to be about my child - his version was about his wife at her funeral):

The Lord was good, and did good, in giving my child to me.
The Lord was good and did good, in so shortly leaving my child to me.
The Lord was good and did good, in taking my child from me.

I know we will grieve and we will continue on. I thank you for your love, support and prayers. Mostly, I thank God for His goodness. May the life of my fourth child be to the glory of God alone.

Ryan
Proud papa of four

Well I don’t know about you, but winter is beginning to feel like it will drag on forever! The holidays are done, and all of our family birthdays that fall in the winter are behind us.

If you have read Katie’s posts very often you know that the kids have been sick often! And just this last week they were sick again! This time it was a lot of runny noses, coughs, and some ear infections.

Even Katie has been feeling sick as well - some nausea, stuffy nose, and upset stomach. But that has been going on for several weeks now and will probably keep going for a while.

With the long winter, we like to get the kids outside to play, but if we can’t do that (since it has been so cold lately) we find ourselves going to different stores and just wandering around - we don’t spend any money, but it is fun to at least get out and let the kids have a different environment. One of our favorites to wander is Best Buy - very convenient parking!

If we don’t go out, the kids have been having a lot of fun lately playing with their babies and pretending they are our family!

And they really like to play pretend!

The one nice thing about winter is that everybody seems to be able to go to sleep pretty easy in the evenings. Abigail, Gabe and Hannah are all in bed and asleep by 7:00 p.m.!

And in this ’season’ even Katie is usually dozing off by 7:30 or 8:30!

We definitely thank God for his changing ’seasons’ and are excitedly looking forward to this next ’season’! We anxiously await this spring and summer and definitely September - because Katie should be feeling much better by then! We love you all!